That’s the thing people wouldn’t understand. This coming out thing. It’s not even about me being gay, because I know deep down that my family would be fine with it. We’re not religious. My parents are Democrats. My dad likes to joke around, and it would definitely be awkward, but I guess I’m lucky. I know they’re not going to disown me. And I’m sure some people in school would give me hell, but my friends would be fine. Leah loves gay guys, so she’s probably be freaking thrilled.
But I’m tired of coming out. All I ever do is come out. I try not to change, but I keep changing, in all these tiny ways. I get a girlfriend. I have a beer. And every freaking time, I have to reintroduce myself to the universe all over again.
Okay, so I know I’m supposed to be reading A Wrinkle In Time, which I am! But I saw this book at the library and remembered it was on the BuzzFeed list I posted previously and thought I’d read it. I’m so glad I did!
Simon vs The Homo Sapiens Agenda is about Simon Spier (pronounced like beer), a gay teenager living in Georgia trying to figure out when he should come out. But things don’t quite work out the way he wants when he’s approached by a classmate. Said classmate, a douche named Martin Addison, decides to blackmail Simon after reading his private emails. Yeah, seriously, this creep blackmails Simon into helping him get a date with Simon’s friend Abby. When I tell you I had INSTANT hatred for Martin I am not exaggerating. It’s hard enough being a teenager without the added blackmail to go with everything else.
I read this book pretty quickly because I just loved it. What is it like to be gay in high school, a time when you’re still discovering who you are? How do you navigate your life knowing that who you are could change everything? I’ve talked to countless people about this very thing and it never ceases to amaze me when they tell me their stories. And reading Simon’s story made me feel for him, especially knowing that at any moment, his secret could come out when he wasn’t ready to share it. Whenever Martin made an appearance, my stomach clenched with worry. Would this be the time Martin makes good on his threat?
What made me love this book was the budding relationship between Simon and another closeted gay teen at his school named Blue. Blue is a pseudonym because Simon has no idea who he is. All he knows is that Blue goes to the same school and is in the same grade. The two send each other emails (yes, you read that right) and it is adorable. Like in heterosexual relationships, the two lovebirds share funny stories, their feelings and stress about whether they’ve said too much. I can say with no shame that I did cry at some point and you probably will too.
The film based on the novel is called Love, Simon (when you read the book, you’ll understand the title of the film) and stars Jennifer Garner, Josh Duhamel and Nick Robinson as Simon. The film drops on March 16 and I’m definitely going to see it.
I’m so glad I read Simon vs The Homo Sapiens Agenda before diving into the next book. It was a wonderful read and I highly recommend it.